Could've died. But didn't. Oh well.

 Had a really bad stomachache shortly after dinner last night. So I went to the toilet and felt an intense pain. So intense I blacked out from it. Next thing I knew I was on the floor. And I still wasn't feeling any better. I thought this would be the last of me. I was in pain, I couldn't breathe and I was sweating profusely.

But somehow I made it.

Got through it all and now I'm feeling fine like always. As if nothing had happened. Except I have a bump on my head, some scarring/abrasion on my face, hand, knees and foot (most likely from the fall when I blacked out) and a sore neck and shoulder. 

Anyway, my wife left for holiday this morning to Thailand. Not sure who with. I never asked. So life is peachy. 

Bus ride

 On my bus ride to work this morning, I saw a man pretend to tap his card upon alighting. I wonder why people can be so dishonest. Come to think of it, I used to be dishonest myself. But I was a lot younger at the time. Still not a good excuse. I'm glad I changed. 

Writing is therapeutic.

But reading what I write here might not do the same for you. If you don't like it, don't read it. 

My mental wellbeing... or the little (very little) that's left of it.

Was sent to a mental wellness course. Pretty generic course that gives generic advice and how to not treat people like shit even when I think they deserve it. Don't say hurtful things, They may have already contemplated suicide, What you say may have been the straw that broke the camel's back.

But if you think about it, the straw isn't quite the reason. Just merely a catalyst, at best. It just helped speed things up. The thought and intention was already there. So if something did happen, would it be my fault? I don't think so. Plus, if I told you off, you probably deserved it.

I'm not some siao lang (Hokkien/Singlish slang for crazy person) who just randomly curse and swear at people for no reason at all... like the motherfucker at Bedok Library. That guy is most definitely a siao lang. So much so that all the other siao langs call him a siao lang. That fucker.

Anyway, I recently found out I offended my staff because of an exclamation mark in my message directed at him. Was I angry? At time time, yes, I was. Why? Because he was supposed to fucking complete an online course or something but chose to ignore my team leader's messages so I had to be the one to send another message to ask him to quickly complete the fucking task as I had a deadline to meet!

But how can you assume he was ignoring the TL's message? Because then why was he able to do it immediately after I sent the "angry" message?!

Eh chibai, if you had done it earlier in the first place, I wouldn't have to write you that "angry" message right?! So stop being a pussy and fuck off already.

How can you be so mean? Eh, you all can fuck off also lah!